In another blog post ( My Struggle is Getting Overwhelming ), I spoke of my struggles after losing my dad. I prayed hard to get out of my depression but it held me down hard. Last week I woke up with a desire to get out of the house and into the sunshine. It was a miracle for me. God answered my prayer!
My husband and I started cleaning up the vines that have plauged us for years. I planted the flowers that I bought a few weeks ago. Mowed the lawn, played with the dogs, planted more veggie plants in our raised beds (kiddie pools), and I sat there praising God for the energy and renewed mindset.
I still cry when I think of my dad, but it's different.
Before my dad died, he began to change...a lot. He began to praise God more, to give my mom and I compliments, talk about the Lord more to the hospital staff around him and neighbors. God was getting dad ready for home. So I began praying that God would change my husband and I like that - to get us ready for heaven. I've been studying the topic, listening to podcasts, and watching videos on youtube from people who have seen heaven in a near-death experience. Just the thought of dancing in the streets paved with transparent gold and singing to the Lord consumed me to want to live life better. To devote it to doing God's will everyday.
I don't want to waste anymore time with things that are distracting me. I'm tired of it. I want to live my life with a better purpose. Death does do strange things to our lives. Some people end up self-destructing and others learn from it and strive to change for the better. Isn't that just wierd?
Thank you Jesus for everthing you have done for us and for taking care of those we love. And thank you guys for your prayers. My husband and I are doing much better. And I'm praying for all of you as well.
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